tonight，i want to say something, working so many years in automotive components company on foam products, i always believe i can group up to be a good engineer and improve my life. but now it is a joke, in vehicles ' winter, i am fail on change to be a process engineer berfore producting, so i lost my job, now i get an ordinary job, but it is not stable, i feel anxious about it, but this year, i just learn only one skill —foam,i have no chance to go other fields, becuase i dinnt learn other skills and didnt change other skills on communication, my eyes is too small.my mouth is so stupid,? my courage is so small, i scare the new things, my brain is slowly. so many shorts on me, how to change, someone had said, water follows down,people goes up. i am running down, i am avoid the world, what should i can do. do i have a new hope to change.